Happinese is to love your families,your friends,the ones you are desered to love

静休假回北京了，前天中午和唐唐、小屎一块在公司附近吃的饭~

她说这次来北京，特别想知道大家的近状和想法~真佩服她在两天内几乎把北京所有的区都去了，把想见的同学都见了。

也许，王博准备离开深发展去香港念书的事，还是触动了她。谁说只有婚姻才是围城呢？工作不也一样吗？静说她从毕业就到了银监局工作，有时候会觉得有些遗憾，没经历过什么苦~小屎说她的想法现在改变了很多，以前，觉得年轻的时候，多吃点苦没什么。但她现在觉得，能不吃苦就不吃苦，吃苦把身体健康都破坏了，有什么用呢~~静问我的想法，我说在国有银行和私企都待过后，我觉得还是国企好，所以我现在才选择去机关。

唐唐马上也要去上海法院工作了，突然想起以前和经理讨论过的一个话题：北大的学生和政法的学生的最大区别：北大的法学院的学生毕业了，大部分都去了律所，而政法的学生，大部分都把公务员当做最佳选择。也许，和学校的学风，氛围，真是有挺大关系的。毕竟，最美好的四年，思想定型的阶段，都是在大学里度过的。

 

Last night, Menmen told me that she's going to quit her job and prepare for the exam, actually, I wasn't shot. About a year ago, she said she want to leave the ABC, I persuade her to think it over. May be she is the girl that will insist her mind,even a year after that. Hope everything goes well with her.

2 years had passed, since we graduated. Some of my friends consider quitting, changing the job, including one of my friend, who is working in HSBC. I was so surprise that he wants to quit, after all, he get the high pay. But he wants to live in a small city, and dislike the city live with great pressure.

Dear Moumou also quit her job, without another new job, I am so anxious about her, although she is in believe in herself.Even so, I belive that her will find a job she most want to do.

Sometimes, I can’t help but wondering, what life should we per sure?

蔡澜曾经说过：旅行，并不是到了一个地方，拍几张照片，买几张门票到景点逛一逛，就算到过那个地方了。真正的旅行，应该是在一个地方住上一段日子，会说几句当地的话，会做几道当地的菜，交几个当地的朋友，才算是到过一个地方了。

  如果按蔡澜的定义，那我真正去过的地方太少了。似乎每次，都是匆匆地去，匆匆地回。每到一个城市，我觉得最重要的是，感觉这个城市的气味。像人一样，每一座城市都有它特别的地方，用语言很难言喻。其实，自己就是一个很土的观光客，像蔡澜说的那样，免不了到当地景点去逛逛，拍几张照片~工作以后，就更少这样的时间可以随心所欲地去游玩了。

  少尉说像我这样挺好的，想起到哪个地方，买了票就过来了，没有什么计划。所以在去往常州的火车上那晚，我给哥打电话时，他一定非常的惊讶，尤其我还和他说要去南京~在这一点上，我可能太不顾及别人的安排和计划了。所以，我很感谢我的朋友，我的老哥，放下手中的事和安排好的行程，陪我去玩。

  到常州的第一天，天下着雨，但丝毫没有影响我的心情~就这样打着伞去了天宁寺和红梅公园。以前，我很少拜佛，但看到少尉那么虔诚，我也拜了几座佛，为家人，为自已。江南的春景真的是非常的秀丽。我自已很清楚，最近的烦心事太多，但来到这么一个美丽的地方，所有的不快都会一扫而光。而且，还有一位可以畅所欲言的好朋友陪伴~

  第二天和老哥去南京，虽然一直都有联系，但是毕竟四年没有见面了。哥说我变了很多，没有以前开心了，没有以前天真活泼了。他印象中的我，还一直是四年前大二时的小女孩。这就是成长，不管你愿不愿意，总会变化的~到了中山陵，我逛得很尽兴，领略了孙总理的思想~最最触动我的一句话，“革命尚未成功，同志仍需努力。”生活，不也如此么？

第三天到夫子庙时，行程已经非常的紧了，初略地转了一圈，就回常州了。下午少尉带我去常州的商业街，没想到我们居然在书店里逛了很久。我挑了几本书，他毫不犹豫地拿出他的书卡结帐，还遗憾没带面值更大的那张~恩，公务员就是好，谢谢少尉~在露天小憩时，在这么一个风和日丽的下午，喝着奶茶，心情自然是非常非常的好~就在这时，少尉和我说了开篇第一段蔡澜的话。

晚上上了火车我就睡了，这三天，可是一点也没歇地玩过来了，很尽兴，谢谢少尉，谢谢哥哥~以后有机会，我还会再去的。

After I got the news, I knew I have to make the huge choice, that will decide my life at least 30 years later. What do I mostly want? This is the most important thing I have to figure out. The comfortable life? That I should choose to go to the CBRC. Actually, most of my friends ,especially my parents suggest me going home, to live a much more comfortable life. After all, in Beijing, the pressure is huge. No matter what decision I make, I should make it for myself, not for my parents, not for him or any other else. only in this way, I won’t regret since then.

那天和某某聊电话，

某某：你还不够独立。

我：我挺独立的呀，你看我一个人生活不也过得挺好的么。

某某：独立和独立生活是两个概念。你一个人生活，照顾自己确实是完全没有问题。但是，你很难一个人生活很久，不习惯一个人过日子。

 

“我不会离开你，也不许你离开我！”看完《恋爱的犀牛》，脑海里一直是马路的这句话，四年前，我对这句台词没有丝毫的印象。也许，即使看同一部剧，不同的年龄，不同的心境，也会看出不一样的感觉。四年前，“也有很多次我想要放弃了，但是它在我身体的某个地方留下了疼痛的感觉，一想到它会永远在那儿隐隐作痛，一想到以后我看待一切的目光都会因为那一点疼痛而变得了无生气，我就怕了，爱她，是我做过的最好的事情。”能让我落泪，08版再听到马路，明明说这句台词时，心里似乎还有那么一丝触动，轻轻的，淡淡的，已经不如当初那般带来强烈的触动了。也许，我已经不再年轻了。

四年前，我觉得马路很帅，再看剧照时，我才知道是《士兵突击》里的袁朗。08版的马路不帅，甚至还有一点胖，但是我依然喜欢他，喜欢他在明明面前的手无足措，喜欢他在水景里最后向明明深情表白的那一幕。

昨晚九点当我到火车站，发现手机停机，而且附近没有充值卡卖的时候，就知道麻烦事来了~不知道车次，只知道发车的大概时间，我迅速在屏幕上查出了到上海的三趟车次的候车室，然后楼上楼下的跑，人挺多，没找着。

  向一个美女借手机打电话，很幸运地借到了~知道车次后我从一楼再跑到二楼，还是没找着，我猜他们可能进站台去了。检票员告诉我要进去必须得到大厅外面的售票厅去买站台票。我一看时间，已经9点25了。于是，我又飞跑到外面去买站台票。进站后我发现自己不知道是哪节车厢，于是我从第10车厢跑到第1车厢，还是没找着。看到车旁有对情侣，忙向他们借手机，那男孩犹豫了一下，还是借给我了，在手机前面拨了几个号，恩，原来是个外地手机~好心人还是多的~

  给游潞打通电话后他告诉我他不知道是第几车厢，我只好再次请求让我再打一个电话。朱少尉说他在第16车厢，我差点没崩溃，我得从第1车厢跑到16车厢，整整一列火车！当时距离发车时间不到4分钟了。我就穿着高跟鞋，向列车尾狂奔过去，觉得鞋跟都要跑断了。幸好，我以前还是练过长跑的人，

  终于在列车发车前见到了朱少尉，  恩，这半小时总算没有白跑！以后，移动提示充话费的短信一定要重视！

虽然老大和我说过：“像这样有集体回忆的话剧，我是不会一个人去看的。”但我还是决定重温一次。中午到蜂巢剧场去买票了，200元一张，同事都说我太奢侈了~不禁想起四年前的那个夜晚，我们6219一起去看的第一场话剧，那天晚上，看完话剧后去K歌到天亮，又去天安门看了升旗，最后在919上睡回了昌平。毕业以后，罗和田都不在北京了，估计这样的机会不会再有了。如果能重温当初的回忆，那么，奢侈也是值得的。

晚上和家里通电话，希望他们来看奥运会，妈妈说她不来了。她不来因为她只有一个年假，她不来因为她想把这个年假用在9月中旬。她说，那会儿你就要考试了，我可以过去帮你做饭。一年前，我记得，当我让她过来看比赛时，她是那么的高兴。这一年，我让她操了那么多的心，什么时候，我才能让你们完全的放心呢？我真是一个不孝的女儿。每天，我以各种理由说服自己不去看书，今天上班太累了，困了......门门有一次问我，你真的想考这个考试吗？是的，我想。那你为什么还有时间去看电视呢？我无言以对。现在已经七月中旬了，已经没有更多的时间可以浪费了。加油！I miss my parents,very very much!

  Last night, I talked to Luo on the phone for an hour, then, I suddenly realize many things that I can’t see before:

In the world, I must live for myself and be responsible for myself, for my parents, they are the people in the world love me most forever. So, although I don’t want to get home for the exam, but for them, I will come back and try my best to prepare for it. I know, since they try to persuade me times and times, they must have their reasons.

  Although the law office is not very large, but I cherish this chance to study and prove my skills. When my lawyer asks me: can you be your role as soon as possible? I really feel pressure, because after 2 working days, I merely can do nothing, so many laws I have forgotten. The worse thing is I usually can’t find a way to resolve the case, don’t know how to begin and continue. So I need to prove and pass the intern days safely, or, I will lost my job.

 Every time I get the ciqikou station when I take the subway, my heart wills get hurt. I can’t help but thinking what if I didn’t leave, what my life will be now? will it be better than now? Giving up such a good working environments, I must an idiot. But now I pass, and move on. Just like Luo told me, remind it can’t help anything to you but get more and more trouble to yourself. Yes, that is true, time will never come back and restart and God won’t give me the chance to choose stay. What I should do is to make it as my passion to encourage myself to move on ,and convince one day I will get more then I stay there~~~   

Last winter, when I was preparing for the pos-graduate exam, I used to say to myself: just a little faith~ yes, that is what Michele always said to his friends whenever they met the troubles.

  This afternoon, after I finished my interview from a law firm, and came home in a very cold night, I received a message from my tutor. He said maybe it is the hardest time in your life, but you have to sustain and have the ability to turn the bad things into good things.  Then I suddenly think of the words that can be said always in the PRISON BREAK: Just a little faith!

  以1分之差没进入最高院的面试，我也重新开始思考是否要在明年考研，研究生的学历毕竟能为去检法工作提供一块入门砖。

  最近面试较多，经常在北京跑来跑去~是否要去已经给出OFFER的那家所，我决定还是慎重考虑一下。昨天在金杜见到了王宁师兄，他讲述了一些他在大所工作的感受，也许不是那么的尽如人意。他说其实所规模的大小不是你首要考虑的，带你的师傅的领域、风格、能力等才是你要考虑的最重要的因素。昨天还见了丁介绍的一个合伙人，是个女律师，从西北闯到北京，挺不容易的。面谈了一个多小时后，知道了她的业务领域和对助理的一些具体的要求。我决定回去考虑一下。

First, do the self introduction in English.

Then back to Chinese, All questions from the HR mm are regularly, like: why you choose to leave ABC? Why you choose HSBC? What do you think the HSBC will provide you? How can you persuade the consumer to choose our bank? How you can finish your target every month.

All in all, the questions put the attention to the small things. When you answer a question, the next question is based on the ex-one.

These days I was very busy, I spent 3 days to finish a report .I hope all my effort is worth.

1st: “M”—I’m lovin’ it __for the manager of one store

Location: Gongmei buildings, Wangfujing

Content: fill some standard tables and one by one talk to the HR (who is the company’s operating manager of BJ area)

Time: 20min+40min, about 1h

Result: unknown, and, waiting for 7 days and if pass it, will have a chance to be intern manager for 3 days, if I prove my ability, can stay and get the offer.

 

2rd: a new company (area: service for IPO) __for the assistant of the boss

Location: new world buildings B

Content: talk with the boss face to face; and one by one (all is from CUPL, according to SW, only one can stay)

Time: 20min

Result: unknown, and, need to write a article in 3 days

 

  子夏姐：你先告诉我，你最想要什么，你的目标？

  我：希望自己事业和家庭都很好。

  子夏姐：往往最简单的要求最难实现。

 Last day, we, with MR.Z and MS.F, had lunch together. Z tells me some of his problems of finding a job that really make me surprise, for he has two LLM abroad. He said maybe the key is the time, yes; most of the enterprise needn’t fishes now. And they gave many suggestions to help me .MS.F is a lawyer mainly duty on suitcase, she tells me a lot interesting things of her job.

  My BF said, MR.Z has the talent to be a HR, and to be a good leader to create his own business. I think his confuse is temporally, so do mine. You know, winter will leave soon, and the spring, the New Year, finally comes.

 

The feelings after I read a chapter from http://bbs.canghai.org/thread-140697-1-1.html

  MS. A, let me call her, cause I even met her, all I know is she’s hometown is SHANXI, love someone I know deeply, let me call him MR.B ,the reason is simple, he is famous on the football guard, of cause ,once you got the chance to wear 10, you will be famous everywhere. Ha~ actually, I am afraid he is angry at with me. Once upon a time, I beg him to send a message to my best sister of 6219, who is at HK now, he is very surprised: hey, girl, I not the one who am on ability to talk to all of your sisters. Yes, I know, but I think that day is her birthday, but she is not happy, because she just left the home and feel lonely outside. I think you have the same feelings when 3 years ago you went to British. After that time, I began to realize what a trouble I was in his minds, yes, minds, not eyes, I was such stupid. But never mind, I am happy, that is enough.

  The point is, if you fall in love with such a kind boy, you will be very tired.

1^st, As far as I know, he changes the GF very often. Some is true, some is ~I don’t know. I only met one girl besides him at a party .she is very pretty.

2^nd, he seems to too busy.

3^rd, he is too smart.

  So, I don’t know what to say to MS.A, maybe what I what to say is: go on your life and wait for the happiness, wait for the MR Right. Excellent boy is everywhere, the world is beauty.

ps:By the way, i am not MR.B's gf, i  have my own bf and i love him

 Last night, we, with his mom, went to WANGFUJING, it is very cold outside. What I want to say is I have a great holiday.

  Today, he is out for business, I feel so sad, even can’t control my tears.  My job is still on the air, not just me, all of my family, especially my mom, is anxious. It makes me think of the text I took a couple of days. The result tells me to relax myself and lease my pressure

Something about BOC’s Examination

Time：14：00-15：30   English (economy, finance, law…mostly concerned on trade, especially about 2008)

 

Time: 15:30-16:00      Relax

Time: 16:00-18:00   I (16:00-17:00) +II (17:00-18:00)

 I: 70’ (the type is the same to the government’exam, even the order)

 II:150’(single choice(130) + more than one choice(20))

 

MY rewards today: prepare for the examination seriously, and learn how to think in English.

 

 

 

 

This afternoon, I went to LONGTAN Middle School, to see my exam’s room. I felt very complicated, is hard to say why. I even thinking to give up the exam, but I can’t .Because my lover, my parents, my family, would worry about me more~~

I miss my parents so much...

 

Mr. Li：(Unknown, 1st interviewer) “attitude is everything!”(o f cause, and ,it sounds like Mi Lu always says to everyone, ha)

 

  Mr. Gao: (the typical ABC) “work can be interesting” (he is right, but just for him, because, most of us, is decided by another one. Not everyone is so lucky, right??)

 

  Mr. Zhang :( the boss) “youths should be ordinary” (yes, that is ture, including me. I am not a beautiful woman. I am a pretty girl, a P.H.D girl. That is to say , Persist,  Hard working  and Determination.)

每周末往昌平跑，不时周中还得去两三趟，业务要照常学，业余要营销~~~已经连续三周没休周末了，晚上很晚才能回家。有时候觉得，每天那么累，倒底是为了什么。乐观点想，就是通过营销，自己一下子成长了不少，从学校的学生气脱离出来了。也知道很多朋友在自己有困难的时候特别愿意帮自己，主动帮忙推了一些卡，虽然数量不多，但还是特别特别的感动。教师节那天，在外面推卡，到晚上手机没电了，才想起来自己还没给老师们发短信打电话，当时在公车上哭了，这阵子居然忙得连教师节都忘了。离行里交的任务还有距离，不知道还要再忙多久，累多久。

由于高姐要休年假，吉姐把我从后台调到大堂，跟了高姐一周，今天开始正式一个人当大堂经理。

  工作一开始就不是太顺利，一大早，不争气的破网速，身份证核查系统死活上不去。一个客户站在我旁边不停地抱怨。抱怨在过去一周听得多了，渐渐也就不往心上去了。但今天一个人当班，还是有压力的。经过一周的观察，我已经发现，最难对付的是北京的老居民，蛮横不讲理，还声音超大的嚷嚷。今天这位老头也没饶过我，不停地嚷嚷我应该学五笔，不然就等着下岗之类难听的话。当时我真想说您老怎么不想想您的女儿如果遇到像您这样的客户对待会怎么样~真是没素质。但我倒底什么也没有说，除了道歉，我还能说什么。我知道对于客户，除了忍耐之外，还是忍耐，不管他在说什么。小赵打趣说我当班第一天，就来这么一件事，真够不顺的——的确是的。往往祸不单行。刚过了不久，一位客户预约大额取款，他问我要不要排队，我说要。也许是因为当时手上的活太多了，我就少说了一句：“把您身份证给我核查一下”结果他在办业务的时候要核身份证，劈头就把我痛骂了一顿，说我不配当大堂，失职之类的。核查前后其实相差大概也就十分钟。开着奥迪来又怎么样，有钱就可以这么嚣张吗？！

  这一周，每天回家，腿和脚都很累，嗓子都是哑的，听的抱怨和投诉很多。大多是无法解决的~能做的就是尽量使投诉针对自己的减少，调整好心态。